A year into the acknowledged COVID pandemic in the USA. And I am going batty… It not even all of the bigger in your face things, like the five times we have had to quarantine in a year but all of the small things. I haven’t been able to relax at a friend’s kitchen table with a cup of tea in soooo long. Sleepovers are a thing of the past. I miss letting down with a friend or heck friends (plural), just being allowed to have some fun. In the last twelve months, there was always a monster lurking over head and in the corners. I am constantly thinking through every decision, “is it safe?”, “am I being responsible?” I am throughly exhausted and simultaneously over stimulated. There are plenty of silver linings. The pace has been slowed down, I do not have to drive my kids around as much,…

This Tide Will Recede As the cold bright stillness of Winter settles upon us and the new year looms on the horizon. 2021, many people are hanging their hats on this coming year being better than the much despised current one. As we putter out of 2020 on the last dregs of fumes in our tank, I check inside and feel, I am confident that this coming year will be brighter than the last. It will not be business as usual, back to the grind of ignorance and consumption. No, we are in for twelve months plus of repair and resilience training, re-patterning the collective nervous system . The hard-work of making change stick and not just slipping back into the old patterns that have sustained disease for the last two centuries. I recognize the renewal of an energy, that has been absent. I have craved this energy my whole…

Only the wounded heal, but wounds don’t heal the way you want them to, they heal the way they need to. What is being wounded? What is being healed? The Wounded healer is the person who has gone through suffering, sometimes great, and as a result of that process has become a source of great wisdom, healing power and inspiration for others. In fact, the archetypal wounded healer undergoes a transformation as a result of their wound, their suffering and pain. They can actually transcend it, and successfully lead themselves to a path of service. Ion Miller

“We are asked not to grieve endlessly because what we have lost will return to us in another form. Hidden within the worst of times are the best of times to come.” Sister Karol

“It’s what happens when you don’t hide from suffering…when you keep your heart open in hell. Hell is still hell, but you know that as hard as it may be, being in hell with your heart closed is really HELL..and the nature of us all is that eventually, our hearts open.” ️Michael Maruti Projansky.  This sentiment captures something, explains the space in-between that good transcendent feeling and the horrible feeling of being crushed by darkness.  I just heard Michael speak and boy was he vibrating from this space, it was honestly palpable. Transmitted through the audience, gives me shivers. #heartopen #trancendence  #innerfreedom #suffering #maharaji

That deep knowing sense in our lower bellies, that knows the truth. But it has to have enough space in our crazy monkey minds to be heard and once heard it has to be obeyed.

I was thinking that I would like to represent the essence of this time of year with a symbol. The next thing I knew, was an open book on my lap and The Goddess Lilith looking at me. She made it pretty clear that she was up for the job. She is a Sumero-Babylonian Goddess. The divine lady, often represented with the lower half of her body encompassed in flames. She is a wild, winged seer, full of hutzpah. She governs the birth, death and re-birth cycles, the transformation of energy. An owl is her attendant, she brings us the message… cast off the parts of the self that suppress and stand up to reclaim your power. Men, Women and all who occupy the gender spectrum, can relate to her strength and forceful nature.